Navigating Twin Flame “Depression” and Self Love.
Are you feeling lost, sad, insecure — simply not yourself — due to the tumultuous journey of your twin flame experience? Are you contemplating stepping off this exhausting emotional rollercoaster? I understand your pain. It’s frustrating to be advised to simply love yourself when you’re grappling with obsessive thoughts about someone you barely know.
The truth is, the twin flame journey revolves around self-love, shadow work, and recognizing aspects of yourself in another person. It’s undoubtedly one of the most challenging inner journeys. The advice to love oneself is valid, but what’s often missing is how individuals bridge the gap from chaos to self-love.
One key aspect rarely emphasized is that mirroring isn’t solely about romantic attraction or sexual chemistry. While we become engrossed in the allure of our twin, we often overlook that our insecurities may not stem from past heartbreaks but rather from deeper, unrelated issues.
Allow me to share a personal experience. During my “relationship” with my twin, I found myself grappling with increasing insecurities after months of interactions that never made me feel this dark before. The emotional exchange lacked structural commitment, leading me to feel like a mess. I fell into a cycle of worry, questioning every interaction, and experiencing bouts of depression. Recognizing the need for shadow work, I delved into uncovering the root cause.
As days passed with unresolved emotions, I felt a growing sense of frustration and fatigue. Seeking guidance, I asked for a sign or a shift. Normally this resulted in my twin reaching out which always reassured me. But this time, they remained quiet. Though, a tarot reading video on TV caught my attention. The mention of twin flame dynamics and mirroring prompted me to reflect on my insecurities.
Through this introspection, I realized that my twin journey wasn’t about romance or attraction. I started to think about the mirroring more, why am I so insecure? What is the mirroring trying to show me about myself? Then for some reason I started to think about current life events that are pretty traumatic, and I went on this sort of mental tangent about how I’m always there for everyone else but no one is there for me. I have had so many traumatic experiences that I have simply had to get over alone. “Alone”…. ALONE! I don’t feel alone in a sense that I need someone, but I feel alone when having someone to hold me up from time to time would be really nice! I suddenly asked myself, why do I constantly allow people who can’t support me emotionally, into my world?
The fear that fueled my insecurities dissolved as I acknowledged the need to walk away from certain aspects of my life to attain true fulfillment. In that moment, the longing for my twin faded, and joy returned. The disconnect and pull I felt disappeared, and I no longer sought external validation.
As we progress through this transformative journey, the key lies in learning about ourselves and cultivating self-love. Trusting our intuition amidst the intensity of a twin flame connection, often entangled with existing relationships, can be challenging. The emotional upheaval is akin to the universe forcing us to strip away the familiar and embrace new identities. It’s a rapid, intense process, demanding adaptation and self-discovery.
I’ve been incredibly fortunate to have an amazing, supportive friend, that I met through Medium, who has been a sounding board during my journey. The highs and lows are part of the process, pushing us to be vulnerable and ultimately transform into a person we don’t even know yet. This can be terrifying!
Navigating through the challenges of “depression” involves deciphering the messages the experience is revealing. What is the root cause of your depression or insecurity? What patterns in your life are now becoming too overwhelming to ignore? For me, it was neglect, a sense of aloneness, and accepting one-sided relationships. The deciphering is the journey to self love! We often ignore the things that hurt us with terms like “I’m fine” or “It’s okay” when really, it isn’t! We hurt ourselves every time. The twin flame mirroring is showing us we HAVE to take care of this before we can every be with them in this world or with another that will love us how we need. How do we ask someone to love us in a way we need to be loved, when we don’t know?! When you accomplish this process, you should know what you want, what your boundaries are and what you deserve. THEN and only then, can you be with your true partner. Until then, it would be such a waste of energy to be in an actual relationship with them. It would fall apart!
What is your mirror telling you? It’s time to delve into the depths of your emotions, unravel the patterns, and emerge stronger on the other side of this transformative journey.
